Infinity incarnate.

I’d like to point out that I am writing this under the influence of music so if there are any holes in my thoughts or writing I have an excuse.

Now that we’ve gotten that out of the way, let’s get to business. I work at a foster care house at the moment. I’m doing my unarmed service there. Not many know about it but a year ago I was having a sort of a personal crisis. Not of identity, I’ve always known who I am, a crisis of surroundings. I needed to figure out some things about reality.

I did some errors due to confusion and haste back then. One of them was going to the army. I figured that in a place that you don’t need to think,. just follow orders, would be the perfect place to use the excess thinking time to figure out some things. I was wrong. All I could think about there was how flawed the Finnish army is. And it’s ridiculously so, but let’s not go there this time. So I did what I should’ve done in the first place. I changed my mandatory military service into unarmed civilian training. And as unbelievable as it is, considering my choice of employment during civil service is giving me more time to think. And giving me more avenues of thought to boot.

You’d think that in a job where I am responsible for several under aged problem children I’d be pretty busy with their problems… But as it always is, solving their problems is helping me figure out my own. And lately, after figuring out my shit, I’ve had time to delve into matters of the physic and meta-physic.

Also, I love it there. Thinking about continuing as a temp after my service ends in the little time that I have before starting my (at the moment hypothetical) university tour of duty.

And all that jazz.