KER-POW!

I had this fabulous blog entry all figured out at work. It had everything: foulmouthing, boisterous baffooning, pompous arrogance, profanities, wit, philosophical conundrum, sex with adolescents, catnip, profanities, cussing, swearing and foul language. But alas, as things go I forgot everything about it by the time I got home.

I have no schedule to abide by so if I haven’t got anything to write, then I don’t have to write anything. I’m doing this for my own pleasure. So why am I writing this now?

‘Cus I’m hardcore like that.

Bouillabaisse.

It’s just one of those days when you know that something’s going to happen. The nagging feeling in the back of your head telling you to brace yourself. And all you can do is to hope for the best. Sometimes, lucky times, the feeling amounts to nothing and you go through a normal day feeling slightly more selfaware. Sometimes the feeling is right and you get to watch your world change.

Just someday…

MODERN SCIENCE!

Logical leap is something that happens when you get from point a to point d.

Assumption is something that happens when you go from point a to point b.

The difference should be clear if you think about it. Logical leap requires that you understand that there are more steps on the way but you’re just skipping over them ‘cus you’re that damn good. Assuming shit is just pretending to ignore the process and making guesses and then hoping that you’re not wrong.

Tricky business.

Infinity incarnate.

I’d like to point out that I am writing this under the influence of music so if there are any holes in my thoughts or writing I have an excuse.

Now that we’ve gotten that out of the way, let’s get to business. I work at a foster care house at the moment. I’m doing my unarmed service there. Not many know about it but a year ago I was having a sort of a personal crisis. Not of identity, I’ve always known who I am, a crisis of surroundings. I needed to figure out some things about reality.

I did some errors due to confusion and haste back then. One of them was going to the army. I figured that in a place that you don’t need to think,. just follow orders, would be the perfect place to use the excess thinking time to figure out some things. I was wrong. All I could think about there was how flawed the Finnish army is. And it’s ridiculously so, but let’s not go there this time. So I did what I should’ve done in the first place. I changed my mandatory military service into unarmed civilian training. And as unbelievable as it is, considering my choice of employment during civil service is giving me more time to think. And giving me more avenues of thought to boot.

You’d think that in a job where I am responsible for several under aged problem children I’d be pretty busy with their problems… But as it always is, solving their problems is helping me figure out my own. And lately, after figuring out my shit, I’ve had time to delve into matters of the physic and meta-physic.

Also, I love it there. Thinking about continuing as a temp after my service ends in the little time that I have before starting my (at the moment hypothetical) university tour of duty.

And all that jazz.